I started writing as a way to express my thoughts for my therapy sessions, which over time has become a way to expel the pressure of my own thoughts. I have ADHD, and I’m very philosophical and introspective. In the past, it all just lived in my head.

Two years ago, I was making a big shift in my life. I was getting over burnout in the aviation industry and realizing my future career wasn’t my future anymore. I was at a point where my foundation was showing real cracks, and there’s nothing like emotional pain to motivate change. Those two years of therapy brought me exactly what I needed. It allowed me to question everything. I decided to open up my belief system and examine it piece by piece. I chose to remodel my foundation rather than rely on beliefs I formed as a child.

I’ve been on a long search for change and maybe an arbitrary truth. I got some answers when it came to my purpose. I am an artist with a valid perspective on the world. My mediums have been drawing or painting, and now writing. I will probably try any medium that allows me to get my thoughts and ideas out of my own head.

I have minimal education as an artist or as a writer, but I want to learn how to take you on my journey, wherever that may be. Most artists are simply trying to express exactly what they see. It’s not easy..

I went through a phase of insecurity recently, where I feared it wasn’t worth writing in a blog if it wasn’t more refined or perfected. I received some harsh criticism, and it made me feel like there wasn’t a point in even trying. I didn’t write for a week or so, but I felt that pressure building. I felt more dull, even angry.

My epiphany tonight was that my writing is more of a mental health exercise. It transforms my tension into energy. The physical charge I get after speaking my thoughts cohesively makes me feel awake. An adrenaline rush, like I just went skydiving.

Part of me hopes that I don’t have readers, because it scares me to show up publicly as a beginner. We all know the criticism we face when stepping into the arena. I’d rather not think about harsh opinions while I practice my purpose. I am writing to let myself feel the freedom I love. I’m writing because I have something to say.